need advice

I lost my baby at 8 weeks, it was really early and right after I was over the scared part and I was actually happy and looking forward to being a mom. This was 10-9-16. I fell into an extreme depression, took 6 months to even come up a little bit. even now I'm not the same, I don't think I ever will be the same person i was before. I thought I had got better and that I could handle accepting what had happened and I really thought I was "over it". on 10-9-17, one year later, I was having a bad day . just knowing what day it was threw me off. that night I had a really bad anxiety attack, it was worse than that. it felt like an anxiety attack but I literally like, flashed back into the hospital room. I flashed back to when the doctor told me I had lost it. it was so real I even felt the cold on the room and the smell of the hospital. I could feel the massive head ache i had. it was like I literally went back in time. when I came back to reality I was just in a panic and went to sleep really really fast. i just want to know if it gets any easier, even now it's extremely hard to talk about it. I just want to be able to one day not hurt, I was just wondering if anyone has any advice on how to stop this from happening again and how to get out of this feeling I've been stuck in for over a year.