Rainbow

So first off we have been trying to conceive for over a year it was hard but I fell pregnant in June when I was 10 weeks we had a missed miscarriage and we opted for medical management which lasted six weeks with complications. double the amount recommended. So fast forward to December 17 I got a new job and it's all I was thinking about i was very excited I didn't even think about bd and we were struck down with illness too. on the second af was due so nye I took tests and come back negative so I had a drink as I thought I wouldn't be so the 2nd which is the day I found out I was having my first and my grandmas birthday I find out I'm pregnant. takes a while for pepper lines to show but I should be due on the 12th of September my daughter was due the 7th although she came in late August. I'm so nervous that something will happen and really worried I also vape so freaking out about that too as it's really hard to quit. how long before you rainbow mum's felt

not worried?