need to vent- sorry

Amanda

So according to glow my AF is due sunday. I tested 2 days ago and got a BFN but I know it was early. I was going to buy a test today to tale tomorrow but I can't handle the let down if it's negative. I had AF like cramps on cycle days 10 and 15 so idk. never had those b4. I have an excessive amount of creamy/milky white discharge. it's more than normal and some days my cervix is so high I can't reach it and other days I can. my body is confusing me so bad right now. very mild heartburn off and on but nothing else as far as symptoms. I'm convincing myself I'm not pregnant so I'm not surprised when AF shows up. idk how you all keep hope as long as you do. I'm only on my 3rd month and losing hope more and more all the time. anyways, sorry for my rant but I had to vent somewhere