I know I should be thankful😑 but so emotionally over it!!

I am so over this pregnancy!!! I seriously feel like I’ve been pregnant for forever! My husband and I tried for 7 months to conceive, got pregnant only to miscarry a week after getting it confirmed. We got pregnant right away before my next actual cycle. I know I should be beyond thankful to be carrying a baby boy but I literally feel like I’ve been pregnant for ten months, not to mention the time we spent actively trying to conceive!

To top it off I had bloody discharge on what would have been my due date. Told my doctor this at my next appointment and at almost 38 weeks she tells me she forgot/never charted that I conceived right after a miscarriage and that my due date is based off my first ultrasound😑😬 I know and so does my husband that we heavily discussed this at my first OB appt.

Am I horrible for being so emotionally over this?!?