hoping for baby

I miscarried in September when i was almost 3 months pregnant. I was heart broken. Every month since then i have gotten my period and i just cry and cry and cry. I didn't think it would affect me this much. When i got my period in december i was sad but I told myself that it was ok and it would happen again and i need to stop dwelling on it. Having that peptalk with myself seemed to really help. i got back in the gym and have been spending a little extra time on me. I needed to show myself i wasnt a failure and take care of myself. And while it still sucks to see all my friends getting pregnant, i am now happy for them and excited! And maybe all of this positive change and thoughts are starting to work. I had slight cramping yesterday sore boobs today, i am so hot and ive been spotting all day (light pink/brown/with mucus)!! period is due in 5 days so keeping an open mind but praying a little bit harder!!!