Ok so this might be weird but I'm having constant dreams about this one guy I liked in 9th grade in my high school. He was the type of guy that talked to everyone and I was the type of girl that was really shy and only had fun w my friends. I didn't talk to him but he would bother me in a way and I acted like I hated him but I actually liked the attention. So fast foward, we both left that high school and went to 2 different ones. I never told him I liked him or never tried to flirt or anything like that bc I was too scared. After I left that highschool I thought I was going to forget him but I was so wrong. I've cried about it and idk why. I want to hit him up to see what hes up to and I would tell him that I like him but the problem is that I don't have any of his social media. I'm not going to lie but i have been lurking to try to find his ig or Twitter but it seems he doesn't have any. I'm scared to ask people he knows for his snap Bc then they're going to ask why I want it and I have a feeling some of them know I had a thing for him and they're going to think I'm a crazy stalker girl lol. His name is Matthew and I don't know what the fuk to do please help me😭😭I'm really desperate here especially w the dreams they're freaking me out.