My pregnancy is driving me crazy :(

I’m 38 weeks almost 39 and I’m so so tired by this time... I went to the doctor today and he told me I’m not dilated but he felt my baby’s head... I know anything could happen any time soon but I’m feeling so sad and devastated because I tried to walk every day, dance and everything... I wanna see my baby and go back to my body...

He also mention that he can induce me on Monday 22 but theres a 40% chance of a c-section or I can wait till my body is ready. I don’t want a c-section and I don’t want to wait any more 😢😢 I’m so scared of it... I wanna have a natural birth so bad but I believe my body and my baby are not ready :/ I know I have to be relax without negative thoughts but it’s so difficult not to be this emotional at this point of my pregnancy..

what do you all recommend? Can anyone went through the same thing as me?

Don’t be mean please 😢 I’m just a desperate pregnant woman who wants to see her baby