Hey guys, a little background story. I was friends with my hubby for 5 years before we got together. We got together and after 6-7 months I fell pregnant unexpectedly. He didn't want the baby he wanted me to abort and so we broke up. We saw each other here and there to see how we felt about each other and it was clear we still loved each other but for him our son was a deal breaker. My son was born and I had to deal with the abuse from my parents because he had left me and the baby and I was still living with them. I was crushed. I hated him for being so selfish because surely you don't do that to someone you u love truly. So anyways he came into my son's life a year ago and he got back together (my son was almost 2) and now we are married and life is good.

So.. Now he's so much better and I know I'm silly and i feel so stupid. I thought I was over the whole abandoning us thing but I'm not. He's nephew was born this week he rushed and packed the hospital bag for his sister and went to her, waited and then held the baby and did everything as if the baby was his. I just couldn't get it out of my head that when it was me he didn't even call or speak to me or even to see a picture of his newborn baby. I thought it was very sweet of him but I feel so crushed that he's doing so much for a child that is not his. When at that time I was in the hospital all my myself. I'm so sorry for talking so much I just don't have anyone to talk to.