I'm not enjoying my pregnancy & I'm worried I'll regret not making memories.

My pregnancy is almost through at 29 weeks, uterine complications show I won't carry to term and even though I've had countless ultrasounds I still don't feel connected to my pregnancy. I'm not enjoying it. From the intense morning sickness in the beginning to the muscle aches and heart burn I have now. Include that I've been put on extreme rest, I just...don't like it. I don't post pictures of my bump. I don't want a baby shower or maternity photos. I don't enjoy chatting about this or that about the pregnancy or baby talk. This isn't a body change thing either. I don't have stretch marks, I haven't gained much weight. My hair looks better than ever. I just...don't have the slightest want to do these things. Is it normal?

Now, don't get me wrong, I love the baby I'm carrying. I'm ecstatic to have a baby and almost cry in joy with literally every little kick. I see his socks and onsies folded in his drawers and I could burst. I'm so ready for him to be here. And my boyfriend is very supportive. To the point that it's almost unbelievable. I have a wonderful support system. But the pregnancy has made me mean, short tempered, and shut in. I feel so selfish because of it. I worry that might affect me post partum.

Will I regret not doing all the standard pregnancy things? Like cute gender reveals and maternity photos? I just can't make myself do them. I think about them and would probably rather set myself on fire. My therapist says it's just me wanting to shut myself in and not share my pregnancy, but at the end of the day I'm worried I'll be upset I don't have these memories.