small struggles of a demisexual

Heyo you’re local demi-pansexual here! :D Usually I shorten it to pan tho cuz explaining demisexual can become a pain in ass. Also, it seems hard to find other people that relate in this manner but: I can’t find people attractive by just looking at them. I can appreciate someone’s appearance, their aesthetic, clothes, etc, but i don’t drop dead because their so HOT uGH IMWET you know?? I really don’t get people that do ^^;; I feel so out of place when ppl try to talk to me about ~ooh that cute guy over there~ (if it’s girl i usually go “yeah she’s pretty!” cuz i SUPPORT 👏 but im not “UGH SHE H O TT” lmao) and in those situations i usually just bring out the awkward laugh. hehehelp idk how to participate in this conversation without being fake 🤧