I don’t know what’s happening to me ..

Over the last few months I have felt myself slipping; I’ve become more needy, irritable among a constant struggle of overthinking. I find my mind creating scenarios that aren’t true, taking the slightest “what if” and automatically jumping to very bad situations that have not/would not happen. But just because I can admit that it won’t happen, doesn’t mean that my mind isn’t making every effort possible to have me worry and question everything! This feeling has me miserable most days and in tears for no reason on other days. I’m asking “why” nonstop like an annoying little kid. I went out of state over the holiday to visit family leaving my significant other home due to work/finances etc. Since I got back I feel as though I’m even worse. Questioning why someone is being “so nice” or being “too helpful”. I feel like my current issues are becoming more of a problem, although he’s never said anything of the sort. I’ve been known to be very hard on myself and I feel like it’s easier for me to be annoyed with myself before anyone has a chance to do so.

I’m in a wonderful 8 year relationship with a man I love very much who does nothing but support me and love me despite my recent “attitude problem”. I just feel like if I keep going down this road, that I may ruin my relationship with not only my significant other but family and friends as well.

Side not: my family moved out of state a year and a half ago and i was very close to them so part of me feels alone without having them so close anymore.

I know there is a lot of mixed sentences in here but I’m hoping someone can help.