Curiosity is killing me

So I am at a stop light right now ( figure of speech) I went from having irregular periods while on bc in high school then I got off of the birth control a couple years ago and my period regulated and were coming every 26 days then I noticed I was starting late one day maybe two every cycle then my period didn't come at all 5 months ago. Then my period came about on time ever since, the previous cycle I started 5 days early and bleed all the way till my window was over ( 10 days) now I was supposed to start on the 16th of Jan and ended today but I have no trace of blood, brown discharge, anything. My man and I have been trying for about 4 months now and every time we do it is not just once haha 😂 I wanna say in a week our total is 6 times maybe more, so super active, idk what's wrong. Why is my period not here or even a sign besides sore breasts and getting super hot and then cold repetitively and lastly dark Arriola's..... I have taken about four pregnancy tests in the morning two yesterday the first was the Kroger brand and I had a very faint line on it, I posted it on this app and I had a couple people saying for sure they see the line then a couple saying they don't - then for shits and giggles I took the dollar store one later in the day and that was negative. Today I took two about 20 minutes ago. The first one today was the clear blue plus or minus test and then the doller tree one again and that was negative. I don't understand. I want to be happy right now and think I am pregnant, but I just don't know what to feel having all this happen. I need everyone's opinions I want to cry right now😔