Do I friendzone him? Or take a chance?

Ok this is gonna be long & confusing....

So there’s this guy who I was friends with last year (he went to the same school but then had to switch schools in a diff town). We talked and blah blah blah he liked me and I sorta liked him but at the time I was going through stuff at home with my parents and I didn’t feel like he could understand/help with advice. Plus I didn’t think it would work out with the diff schools and all so I said no when he asked me out. We still remained friends and this year he moved back to my school. We still talk and he comes to my plays and practices and stuff. He’s the only one who shows up for support. He got me a Christmas gift of my favorite candy. Everyone keeps nagging that I should be with him but I don’t think I see him in that way anymore. He said he only likes me as a friend and tries to hang out with me but I’m an antisocial asshole so I always come up with lame excuses and feel bad afterwards. Like he’s a nice person and a great listener and all, but honestly I think I just see him in a platonic way, like I never kissed anyone before but I just don’t see myself kissing him and stuff like that. Plus when we talk in person I always feel weird and awkward and shy and he’s always mumbling so I can never hear what he says. Plus we have some differences some which I don’t really care to be bothered with. (Ex: he’s obsessed with trap music and cars and I’m just not about that😂) i know I should be more open to him but I’m just going through a lot of emotions I don’t wanna burden him with. I know I’m coming off as such a shitty person :// but idk what to do... like I have the worst luck with boys, I’m so shy and a lot of guys are major douches but he’s one of the nice ones, he’s the only one who actually texts me but I don’t think I should date him and pretend to be into things I’m not and waste time and put both of us through heartbreak. But I just feel so lonely :( Like all my friends are out dating and having all these experiences with guys and I’m literally the prude who can’t get anyone, they constantly nag and It makes me wish I could be more outgoing. I know they say that all in good time but I’ve just been down on my luck and tired of looking/waiting. how/should I get him to take the realization that I just want to be friends nicely? (Btw we’re both 15 haha)