giving up ttc

no one else to really talk to that understands or that i even trust to talk with. but im thinking of giving up ttc, its been a little over a year& still nothing. its taking a toll on me. i want to be a mother more than anything but i just dont think its going to ever happen for me, number of reasons. idk how ppl deal with this emotionally& mentally, telling my bf every time my pd comes& seeing his face i just cant do it anymore. maybe one day ill be lucky enough who knows. but baby dust to you all❤️