Miss you so much 💔

I’m feeling really down right now. My cat that I’ve had since I was born (my parents got her while pregnant with me) passed away a few months ago and I just miss her so much... I have depression and anxiety and I feel like she was always the reason I didn’t kill myself because I felt like I couldn’t do that to her like who would take care of her and I’d always look forward to seeing her and now she’s just gone and I feel like my heart is empty. She was almost 20 and I know that’s a long time for a cat but it just seems unfair that someone who brings only joy and happiness had to die. 😣