Injury and depression

So i got injured and i have been in a lot of pain and its stressing my mom out and like idk i just feel bad she keeps having to take me to the hospital and take time off work to do all this shit with the doctors and idk its spiking my depression a little like if i died then she wouldnt have to worry about doing all of that and she doesnt need to have a funeral for me because i doubt any one would come anyways.