frustration

so I'm one of thos I'm going to ... test test test .. even if its early .. I wish AF would just show up ... I'm 10 dpo and have had negative after negative... along with what I'm sure are evaps .. I might also say I am in a lesbian relationship and we use a donor .. its frustrating because we have a 4 year old which we did the at home insemination with .. it was so easy to conceive our son .. but this time around its not so easy ... I guess I'm just venting ..