dont touch me

so i was assaulted molested raped whatever you want to call it last year and recently was ftf with the perv again about a month ago. ever since the first incident i cant be touched by any guy that i dont know very well or im not friends with and not freak out . i also get really scred whenever this happens as well.

when i saw him again i touched him and it took all of me not to break down right then and there or the 6 hours afterward when i saw him. he also tou hed my phone which i must've washed with alchol wipes 20 times already ti get rid of him.

i am trying to move forward in life move past this advance my career. not only as a student but as a daughter sister friend cousin and overall person can anyone give me tips on how to get over this anxiety i get or at least how to deal with it. anyhring helps!