advise please 😭

So first thing is first I’m not a virgin anymore. It’s been about a year since I lost my virginity to some douche , but that’s for another story lol. Also I haven’t had sex since then. We only had sex maybe like three times , but everytime we did do it I would always get nervous when he would try to go down on me so I never let him. Even though I would love to find out what the whole hype is about , I’m super curious to know how my vagina is suppose to taste/smell. I know , I know I may sound super silly, but honestly I’ve always been afraid of what it’s going to taste like or if the person that i let go down on me will even like it... help?