I could have gotten hurt or died, and hurt someone else last night

I am beyond upset. Please don’t judge me because I’m already very upset with the situation and had no idea what was going on and I just need advice.

So last night I’m with my boyfriend and his friend C calls and asks if we want to toke up with him and T at T’s place and my boyfriend says yeah yeah, and doesn’t even ask me, I don’t know this T guy and C is really immature, not my favorite guy but I let it go because we get to smoke.

So we get there and T has a pretty sketchy apartment but he starts talking and he’s actually a nice guy, he and his gf are just getting by, so we start smoking and he’s drinking beer, didn’t think anything of it and C was being obnoxious and wanted to go to the liquor store to get booze for later so they decide they want to go and ask my bf if he wants to go and he says yeah let’s go.

My boyfriend never talks to me when we hangout with friends he just talks with them so I was already a little upset by then and then we get in C’s car and he’s like it only takes like 10 minutes and I was like cool because I don’t have a seatbelt. So we start driving and they start talking and I overhear C talking about what nips he’s had earlier and I was like oh fucking great he’s been drinking.

He was like all over the road! I was terrified. I was beyond scared, I didn’t have a fucking seatbelt and T was like cool as hell about it and my boyfriend was nervous too and was telling C to slow down and drive right trying to help C out.

My boyfriend didn’t say anything to comfort me, I was holding on to the door while my boyfriend buckled himself in and wasn’t even concerned about my safety! I was ready to cry I wanted to get out of that car.

So we finally get to the store but C forgot his ID so he decided we should go to a different liquor store that’s 20 mine away and I was pissed and scared. He hit a fucking curb twice and STOLE alcohol. Like I’m just still trying to process everything I’m still shocked idk what to do or if I should say something to my bf for letting me be in that situation where we could have died and risked the lives of everybody on the road and him being like okay with it? My boyfriend will drink and drive himself home sometimes and a few times he’s picked me up drunk without my knowledge. And just the fact he’s friends with these people. I’m not okay with it at all.

What do you think I should do??