leaving my preemie to go to work 💔

So im starting a new job on monday!! Idk if i can handle it . This isnt my first baby and i know my daycare for 3 yrs as she is watchching my 4 yr old now. But he almost didnt make it in this world and to think he wouldnt be here makes me so sad . I love every minute with him . He spent 29 days in the NICU and i was always with him , i havent been apart from him since his birth . So now i know i have to work , cuz as you know the bills dont pay themselves . And they dont except IOUs lol . And they dont have money trees cuz i would have a freaking forest of them lmao . So i think about leaving him and i get sad and start crying , i wish i could take him wit me .