TTC Baby #2 shocked and confused

Need to Vent...Long post....

Wondering if anyone else has experienced something like this?

So my DH and I started trying for Baby #2 this month. Little History first, I have only had a few natural periods ever. What I mean by that is unless I’ve been on BC or taken provera I hardly have any periods. So my OBGYN was very proactive and amazing with us when we started to try for our first and ended up conceiving on our first round of Provera and Femara. Which we were extremely shocked and blessed by. So I went to my OB and got my medication to try for Baby #2. He had high hopes that we’d conceive on our first round again since we did with our first. So I got my period and ovulated on the 12th of this month. I track my bbt and use Clearblue advance ovulation test. So I totally thought that we had conceived bc I was having every symptom I had when I got pregnant with my son. Extremely sore breast, acne, fatigue, cramping, high bbt readings, and some nausea. I thought that I was having implantation bleeding on 12 DPO. Took pregnancy test on 12 and 13 DPO and both BFN. Then on 14 DPO my period started. Which I am completely in shock over! I haven’t had a natural period in over 4 years. Let alone one that is exactly 28 Days from my last one. I’m just feeling confused and heart broken. Im praying that I actually ovulate this month on my own. Only time will tell. I pray that it doesn’t take us a long time to conceive again I don’t know how well I’ll handle the constant disappointment. I’m not trying to sound selfish I’m just shocked and confused by what my body is doing this month. I know God has a plan for us and I just need to trust him. I needed someone else besides my husband to talk too. I know a lot of you have been trying for years and I pray that this month is your month and Baby Dust to you all!