how to feel better 😭 *update*

update* thank you ladies so much for the support and letting me know I did the right thing. It's been a rollercoaster and such a hard choice to make, his paranoia is at a peek he believes cars parked up our very busy street are people waiting to kill him he believes someone has a hit on him (all very untrue as had always lead a very vanilla life) it breaks my heart that he has to go through this I just wish he would accept help but unfortunately as I have learnt schizophrenia is the hardest mental illness to get help for as the person doesn't see that they are ill

had to make a rough choice...i have split with my fiance as he has paranoid schizophrenia and refuses to get help I have tried and tried and tried some more I have gone to the ends of the earth to get him help but he utterly refused. It's got to the point of abuse and he was sleeping with knife under his pillow. I had to in the end leave with my son (7years old from previous relationship) to keep us safe. I'm heart broken because he is a good man who is very very unwell. it is the hardest choice of ever made. please tell me I have done the right thing? I feel so lost and broken. will I ever heal? I am 27 and he was "the one" 😭 I'm just devastated.