Post abortion

I got an abortion about two weeks ago at 15 weeks.😞 I’ve been so insanely depressed I really don’t know what to do about it. I had a dream last night about my baby and it’s just been nonstop crying since I woke up from the procedure. I’ve had so many feelings of guilt and pure sadness I just wanted to know healthy ways some of you who’ve experienced this as well, or haven’t, that I could cope with this instead of trying to sleep so much and drinking or smoking. I’ve been so restless no matter how tired my body is I can’t sleep at night unless I take a benedryl or something idk sos