Advise

ok so.. i don’t talk to my mom and there’s really no women in my family so i turn to this app. i’ve been dating this guy for almost a year now, a few months ago we took it more serious and got really close, sleeping together, i’ve cried to him about my child hood, being raped and a lot more other stuff. sometimes i do get really annoyed by his ways, how messy he is how he does whatever he wants, and i don’t like to have a lot of friends i’m not a fan of drama at all, so he’s basically my bestfriend, and one other girl but we’re not that close anymore.. i feel like if i left him one day.. i wouldn’t have anybody? what do i do?