i'm struggling

so ever since i was 13( i'm 15 now)i've been ridiculed for my weight. by my mother, my brother, and my friends. only recently i have made a best friend and she understands what i'm going through. we both have been big girls since the day we were born. i weigh 208 and it's hard for me to look for clothes and stuff. i have no discipline when it comes to food. i feel like i'm slowly falling into depression. someone tell me their eating schedule please. thanks to everyone who comments.