No respect

Its sad when someone u love just doesnt respect you ... you do everything you can for them , your there for them , you treat them good , show them love , put up with all their shit ... and they still have zero respect for you ... ive waited 4 yrs for this boy to respect me but i still get cursed out , called every name in the book , get told im a slut & im not that good looking so nobody else will want me . But the minute i try nd move on he gets mad , threatens me , threatens his own life . What do u get out of just having someone around who ur just rude nd mean to 24/7 ? I dont get joy out of being mean , bringing ppl down , arguing , or disrespecting anyone but i guess not everyone is like me smfh 🤦🏼‍♀️