Exes....

Well... I feel weird saying this.. I normally don't tell anyone anything and keep it all to myself, but why not, my old bf I still have feelings for him and I'm a pretty good person all b's in school, I never get in trouble, I've got to much empathy for just one person, I drag in all the stray cats(if u no what I mean) and all my 2 friends say I'm very beautiful and funny, so I think I'm a pretty good person... Well my ex got together with this hoe, and he was a virgin when I dated him but lost his v-card to her, and he started doing drugs and drinking and smoking, when he started dating her, and he is constantly making out with her in front of me, and on top of that he told her the she was the best decision he ever made and he loves her, that's what he told me, word for word he told me that he told me that he fucking loved me that I was the best decision he ever made, that he loved me, I'm still not over him, I ACTUALLY LOVED him, and he never loved me back, it hurts so much, i cant get fucking over him, I've tried dating other guys, talking to my councilor at school but i can get over him, I love him, and he constantly flirts with me at school, I can't believe he went to me to that ho that's only in 8th grade, she has fucked more guys then most adults have. My ex is a junior, and he's dating a 8th grader hoe, druggy, and straight up bitch, im crying while writing this, but this is a rant so, I'm glad i can get this off my chest, but it fucking hurts, I just wish I could get over him but every day every minute every second, I want to be with him, I want to hug him, I want to kiss him, before the drugs completely fry his mind... I also wish he could let me hate him but he's to God damn nice to me, and to God damn humble for a person who started doing drugs, he is always volunteering at churches and food drives, I wish I could get over him..... 😭😭😭