vent- anxiety...i can't be alone in this

Shannon

I know I can't be alone in this....i am so tired of feeling all the pains and stabs and wondering "is this it?". I am so tired of sitting here and timing contractions and counting kicks. I am tired of wondering if I should go to the hospital or if I should stay home....last night I had contractions and couldn't breath through some of them towards the end. I went to the hospital and I was 60% effaced and 1 cm dilated and lost my mucus plug. They said I could go home and be monitored another hour. I went home. They said I could take 1000mg of Tylenol. I did, went to bed, and now I feel fine. I wanted to go into labor naturally, but honestly I am more stressed out about when to go in and the pain i am feeling that now I am debating on taking my Drs offer of voluntary induction.....i am so jealous of the mom's that can sail through the end of their pregnancy or don't feel on high alert 24/7 about their pains and cramps. it really just gets me down that I can't figure out what the hell is going on with my body. I just cried my eyes put last night as I sat in my pain and was told there was nothing going on with me and to just try to sleep. if I hear that I have a "irritable uterus" one more time I am going to scream...