just a vent post.

so im late. 12 days late. and its so fucking annoying. i have cramps and my boobs are hella tender. i dont think im pregnant. im sure its cause of the pill change. but like fuck im constantly on my toes. when i wipe is it going to be bloody? OH GOD I HOPE ITS BLOODY! no? FUCK. and we wait and wait and wait. everyday i log on <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> and my days late gets larger its like this weight added on my shoulders. cause i hope im not pregnant. not now. we're not quite ready. but at the same time im praying im pregnant because i want his baby so bad and for such a long time. i try not to think about it so i won't false positive. but when i do boy am i confused on my feelings! all i know is i love him. one day i would be honoured to bear his offspring. whenever it happens it happens. handing this over to the higher power. AAAAAAAHHHHH! fuck. end of rant.