Happy to Sad within two days

So I found out I was pregnant with my third child, I was so excited. Only to wake up on Saturday morning with serve cramps and a sticky wetness on my legs. Unfortunately I loss my baby dealing with yet another miscarriage is quiet had to deal with. I lost two before I had my two boys which were 15months apart to now suffering with a third miscarriage. Hubby thinks it’s a blessing in disguise and all I can think is that I really wanted this baby. So each day is a struggle to breathe and just deal with life.