Guilt & anxiety

I am having such a hard time with being pregnant, I sadly am going through really bad all day sickness. When I found out I was pregnant I had the "baby flu" and had to be in the hospital cause I hadn't had food or water in a week! That's how bad this is... so far everything with this pregnancy has made me feel miserable 😔 my bf and I currently are having a issues and not together right now though this pregnancy has made that some what better. I just can't stop having bad thoughts... I haven't felt normal and have called out of work so much. I feel so guilty thinking about how my life would be easier if I wasn't pregnant right now, how I could eat normally again... I know this baby is a blessing and will be loved so much and I'm not the type of person to terminate a pregnancy but the thoughts just keep coming because I feel so miserable 😔 I just don't know what to do anymore 💔