Emotional and craving stuff I don't really like

Okay so the last week I've been super emotional and craving hot sauce every time I look at it I wanna put it on something 😂😂 but anyway my family and fiancé want me to take a test I don't really want to cause I don't want it to say no and I feel it will we've been down this road a few times and I just don't wanna get crushed again what do u guys think