Emotional day

I cried three times already today thinking about my miscarriage and why it happened. I find myself retracing my moments thinking.. what did I do? Was it because I drunk a soda? Was it because I was upset before I went to bed? Was it because I went to work?! I guess what’s meant for me is for me.. praying for a successful implantation🙏🙏🙏 to replace my lost