Found out I’m pregnant

And I still haven’t told my husband

1. Because I’m scared to know his reaction

2. We had a miscarriage back in December

3. The last time I told him he freaked out and told me to abort it.

4. We weren’t trying to get pregnant because I was going to make this year about me and had so much planned

5. I wanted to wait till after my first appointment if I make it that far because I’m doubting myself because I’ve had 3 miscarriages.

I’m scared if I wait till after my first appointment he will be mad I didn’t tell him sooner. I don’t know what to do.