Bad mom

Jennifer • Julius was born Jan 23, 2018 ! Our second Cruz was born July 4, 2019!

I love my adorable little guy to death. He is a great baby (minus not usually sleeping very deeply) and I really cannot complain that he makes this newborn phase extra difficult. But I feel like such a bad mom or terrible person because I just don’t like this newborn stage - I have a lot of anxiety/stress feeling like I will never have a moment of freedom again because I worry about him all the time and I feel so chained down by the eating and changing and crying. Then when I think about not being near him I am sad and want him next to me but it’s just so emotionally draining.

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I just this terrible mom for having a 3 week old and already needing some sense of freedom or time to myself?