Y’all I’m about to lose it!! I’m going crazy I swear!

Me & my SO are “trying” for baby number 2! I say “trying” with the quotation because he works offshore! So timing it’s a little rough! We got lucky with our first! But this has been a challenge. ANYWAY!

I THINK IVE CONVINCED MY BRAIN INTO THINKING IM PREGNANT.. crazy right? But is it impossible?? Like all I’ve been thinking about is if our tiny % in conceiving is about to be a tiny miracle!! So now I feel like hyper sensitive to everything!! Like my boobs are huge & tender, my sense of smell is ridiculous (like superrrr smell) Ive had headaches for a week, today I felt nauseous 2 times randomly & I’ve had light cramping but those are like your average text book symptoms so I can where I can mentally fool myself there but I can’t sleep, I’m averaging about 4 hours a night the past 3 nights. In the early AMs on the 13th my Apple Watch notified me 3 times within 10 mins of each other that my heartbeats was too high, my resting heart rate on average is 70 MAX!

So I’m like okay cool I’m being haunted in my sleep & freaking TF out..

Then I looked at my average for the past 3 days & my resting heart rate has been on average 101-121 bpm!

So I texted my sister whose a NP & she just said you’re pregnant, no one knows we’re thinking about baby number 2 but us so now I’m really like oh hell maybe I’m not crazy.. then she told me to look up pregnancy & Fitbit now I’m like 🧐

Did I mention my skin breaking out in cystic acne!

OHH & my gums started bleeding when I brush my teeth & I had blood in my nose this morning..

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!!

With my son I literally had no way of physically knowing I was pregnant until I missed my period & I took a test, then when I gained weight, I had NO SYMPTOMS. So I feel crazy.. so I sound crazy!?

My period isn’t due until next Tuesday, & it’s too soon to start taking test so I’ll just be here.. being crazy... someone tell me I’m crazy so I can drink some wine without being more crazy!!

(That small % btw was I have a irregularish cycle anywhere from 21-31 days normally 26 one month & 30 the next.. we had sex the day after my period ended, then he left, does it up my % If it was at 1am lol)