10+ yrs TTC w/ Physical and psychiatric disabilities

Autoimmune disease, bi-polar, endometriosis, ptsd, Sexual abuse and rape trauma from childhood, pelvic inflammatory disease.... My body is the gift that keeps on giving. I’ve been with my husband since I was 15 now I’m 31. We haven’t used any birth control for over 10 years and still not pregnant. Sorry about the rant, it’s been a really bad couple days. I’m sickened by misdiagnoses, treatments that cause new illnesses and believing doctors when they talk me into crazy ass treatments that eventually screw my body up more!

I don’t want to be the reason my husband won’t be a dad. We have both always wanted children so bad.

I’m so lost right now