So basically I’ve attempted suicide, been depressed & anxious, etc. I’m currently in therapy and I’m being treated, yet for some reason I want to go back in time to when it all started, or even in the middle of everything. It might be bc I liked the attention? Or maybe bc I feel like I missed out on a huge part of my life bc of the hospitalizations and things. I still think about driving off a cliff or cutting myself, although I’m “healed”. I think about ending it even though I’m not necessarily depressed. Does that make sense?