AF Due 6/10 but knocking on the door today.. Feeling down

Anyone else feeling torn? Glad to have found and started glow and yet it makes me even more obsessed with the idea of getting preg. 3rd official month trying and I swear I didn't know it would have been so hard, or else I guess we would have started trying before turning 30 :/ trying not to get discouraged but seeing the start of AF made me sad. Really thought paying attn and trying this month would be it, sorry just venting