ex boyfriend

the love of my life broke up with me 5 months ago and ive been heartbroken since. he is in the air force and currently living in texas, i dont know what to do because i just want to reach out to him and tell him i love him but he doesnt want a relationship. idk what to do because im sick of feeling worthless and i cant even talk to guys because i tell them how much i love my ex and then they stop talking to me.