About 9 months ago I had a surgery on my tail bone to remove an abscess, I've got a disease where I get these cysts on my tail bone if I run, sit too long or do anything that involves the muscles of the area tightening, I've even reverted back to my eating disorder ways but I can't keep it up because I'm so use to eating after I got better and I'm so sad about how I look I think what's the point

I'm getting bigger everyday

I use to do sit ups everyday and work out, I weight 55kg and since my surgery i haven't ran, done a sit up or anything to help me lose weight because it hurts or will make me need surgery

I now weigh 70kg...

some say 70kg is a good weight, but not when it's all fat

My legs have dimples

I have back rolls just standing straight

Flabby arms

Thick fingers

And a stomach that would fool you to thinking I'm pregnant

I hate my self so much, and I can't do anything to be the old me... I look at all the skinny girls I work with and it makes me so sad, not because they are skinny but because they can run or work out

I'd do anything to be able to sit down properly or even do a sit up..