still scared to be excited!!

got my bfp at 11/12dpo.. AF was due today and mine normally start around 1/2pm always have.. it's now 17:57 and still no sign of AF not to mention I tested with another cheapie and it was positivethis morning (12 test all +).. doctors on Monday to confirm🤞🤞 feel so lucky that this happened on our 3rd month of trying but this month was the month we actually took it seriously and now I have my bfp I really thought I would be over joyed and I am but now I'm terrified I might do something wrong, or somehow god will take this blessing away I just can't shift this horrible feeling in my gut.. but I'm so excited to feel this little peanut grow inside me and eventually meet our child.. I'm all the emotions I can think of! I'm so sorry about rambling I just needed to get this off my chest. 💜💜💜