So I was never an active person, I lived in such a strict house hold I wasn’t allowed to do anything. I got married at 18 and always weighted 98lbs and I had the stupid mindset why workout when I’m skinny, Also had a fast metabolism so ate so much junk food. I started gaining but in a good way. So fast forward to the end of 2014 I got pregnant at 20yrs old and had my daughter as a micro preemie at the beginning of 2015, I started working out a little after but not as much, And did not diet at all either, So I started gaining. The Beginning of 2016 I get pregnant again to my son, and had him on Sept of 2016, After I breastfed for a little and worked out a little more while watching what I ate a little more, Still not dieting. So I wasn’t “fat” but I was really unfit. Anyways summer of last year I started working out and trying to diet, I went down a lot but still had fat stomach, fat thighs and arm fat.. I was working hard and had started to see a difference, But then I found out my husband was cheating on me and got in to depression and stopped, I forgave him just to find out he didn’t stop seeing the woman at the time and she ended up getting pregnant. Depression got worse so I stopped working out. You guys will hate me for this and think I’m the most stupid woman ever..He claimed he was done with her and she came out of no where with the pregnancy, She was even with her dude (also her baby’s dad)whom she cheated on with my husband so he said she might be lying and could be her dude’s, He said he had dropped her and told her to leave him alone and he felt like she was still trying to bring him around so she told him the kid was his.. Made no sense to me but then she went and had an abortion so I thought, Maybe it was really a 50/50 chance it was either my husband’s and her dude and maybe my husband really did tell her to leave him alone so she didn’t want the kid, Just in case it was his. Her dude never said anything through out everything which also made it sketchy. I kicked my husband out when the whole pregnancy thing came out and he moved in with his parents. He was still there for the kids, Bought everything I needed for the kids, Paid most of the bills here and started barely going out, Just stood home with his parents, Only stepped out to work. He has always been good to the kids and has always been there for them. We started talking again trying to fix things and started going to marriage counseling. I was in need of you know...and ended up getting pregnant out of that one time with him unprotected. I KNOW LAST THING I SHOULD WORRY ABOUT IS MY BODY AND WEIGHT WITH ALL THIS OTHER MESS THAT HAS HAPPENED.

But ever since I gained fat I started getting very cautious and after my husband cheated felt like maybe my weight had something to do with it. I want to get rid of all the fat especially on my stomach and muffin top. But now I’m pregnant so I feel like I’m gonna get worst 😞. Sorry for sounding so stupid only worrying about my body But I have had such a low selfesteem for a while now. Is there a way I can work on getting fit while pregnant and burn fat while pregnant??? So It can be easier after I have the baby