Vent!! Sorry for the long post.

Seeing everyone taking their babies home is really getting to me. I’m happy that everyone’s babies are going home it’s just I’ve been here for 2 months almost 3 months of her life it’s just so much especially doing everything by yourself with no help. I love Shaylynn to death but all of this is stressful. I understand it’s motherhood and it gets stressful but this kind of stressful is on a whole new level. The not knowing part is what’s killing me. I’ve almost lost her several times. I just want her home with me so that way I know she’s safe at all times. But of course I want her heathy first. But it seems like every time she gets better and almost close to going home something happens and they push us going home further. Please if your pregnant and your not close to 38 weeks or so please don’t try and make yourself go into labor cherish those moments. I was robbed of getting to enjoy those moments I didn’t get to continue to see my belly grow. I had her at 25 weeks and still to this day I wish I wouldn’t have gone into labor It kills me. So to see someone wanting to induce labor bothers me.