Life...

I lost my precious grandma a week ago. It’s been tough and I have been feeling blue after the funeral. Now the healing starts. She really was my best friend. She couldn’t wait for my husband and I to have a baby and sadly she won’t be here physically to see me have a baby one day. I’ve been doing some thinking these last few days...

January 4th I took a pregnancy test and panicked when I saw a faint positive as I have never seen one. Any test I have ever taken was always negative. A week later when I went to the drs the sonogram and urine test were negative, which broke me. The dr said it could be a chemical loss, hormonal imbalances. I had seen a RE and he said I was normal.

Now that I look back I came to realize maybe I wasn’t meant to be pregnant now. I truly believe God works in mysterious ways. I had figured last month if I was pregnant according to app calculations I’d be due end of August and second trimester would have started last week. I truly believe God knew He was calling my grandma home soon and knew it would be too much for me to handle her loss and being pregnant at the same time. Today she sent me a sign..not a baby sign but one that said she’s with me at all times. I pray to her to send me a baby. I pray all the time and pray for all women TTC. May this be our year 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼