This is it for a while.

I may be the only woman out here to do this, but I just can’t keep up with it anymore. I got married in 2014 and have been trying to have a child since then. The result has been a chemical pregnancy and a miscarriage. Physically, mentally and emotionally; I can’t do this anymore. Not only does it make me feel like a failure that I can’t do the one thing woman were made to do, I hate my attitude when I get AF or a BFN every month. I hate the way I want to cry for days because I’m not pregnant and I hate the way I sometimes act towards my friends, family and husband because I’m not getting the one thing I truly desire. So, I’ve made the decision to stop. No more ttc. I can’t keep up with the ovulation tests, the tracking bbt, spending so much money to see a BFN. It’s hard on me and it should be something that’s easy, but it’s not. I know I probably seem crazy for just “giving up,” but it’s truly too much anymore. I will probably eventually start ttc again, but I don’t know when. For now, I’m just enjoying life and staying happy because this process has made me quite bitter at times. I just want to be happy, that’s all. I wish everyone so much baby dust and love and I hope everyone gets everything they truly desire. 💕