C section #3

Hey guys. Ladies I need to know some positive stories right now. I am due to having my baby June 3. In very nervous because the first one I got sick. The second was worse. I was going in and out of consciousness. I'm very scared for this 3rd one because of the after math when I am recovery. Last time. I gave my dr a scare. My heart rate and blood pressure was going crazy that whole day. I'm very scared of the outcome with this baby. Like I'm afraid I won't remember the surgery or I'm gonna be worse and be in intensive care. Or worse death. I'm extremely nervous about it. This is my lady child also as well for my health. My dr ensures me that he will take care me but also knows knows how the anesthesia affects me. I can't have a VBAC because my body doesn't dilate. We tried with the first 2 and it always end up having a c section. Anyone had this experience???