Short Fingers

Sometimes when I'm masturbating I really want to finger myself but my fingers are so short and I can barely feel them and I'm just stuck feeling so disappointed in my self

Now I'm 20 and a virgin (like gold star, never even been kissed) and I've never been able to have an orgasm when masturbating. I feel like if I could properly finger myself everything would be so much better. I catch myself staring at guys hands sometimes because their fingers are typically so much longer and I just need them 😂