I hate having pcos

I have a 12 year old son and my husband has an 8 year old we don't have a child but with me having pcos I don't know If i will be able to have one he's fine with us not having one but at times he expresses he would like us to have a daughter.. I am 5 days late but being i am irregular that doesn't mean anything took a pregnancy test and it's negative no surprise there we've been married for 1 year and 5 months and have had no luck I am feeling like giving up I can't even get a regular period currently taking metformin and I'm waiting for a period to start birth control to try and regulate my period pcos is so hard to manage I don't even know if I want to start over with another baby but it would be great to have a regular period sorry just needed to vent I really don't talk to anyone about my pcos issues